Mood, Memory, or Myth
“The room is dark, but our eyes gradually adjust to the darkness.” After Dark -Haruki Murakami
The ongoing project, Mood, Memory, or Myth, explores moody narratives, evoking fear, anxiety, and pleasure. Sex, sadness, death, and family illnesses, are recurring subjects that her family considered taboo. The simple of acts of photographing those subjects helps her explore her inner desires and challenge what her Mexican culture and family expected of her as a female: to wed and have children.
Her prints depict dark, cinematic, isolated moments with an undertone of dream-like mystery. Rather than presenting a factual reality, an illusion is fabricated to conjure the realms of our imagination. She creates photos in which the actual event still has to take place or has just ended: moments evocative of atmosphere and suspense that are not part of a narrative thread. The drama unfolds elsewhere while the build up of tension is frozen to become the memory of an event that possibly will never take place. Using her family history, she explores those moody narratives, and the taboos amongst which we live.
she works traditionally, shooting film, Polaroids, paper negatives, and making darkroom chromogenic prints, occasionally incorporating mixed media. Analog production allows her to insert more of herself into each print.
I was the youngest sibling and only daughter in a household of Mexican immigrants. The dissonance between my desires and my culture’s expectations made me anxious. My father’s diagnosis of early on-set Alzheimers, and my family’s inability to have an open discussion about his condition, only made things worse. I turned to photography to express these inner inquietudes, impressionistically exploring events and anxieties.
Shesaidred, is a photographer, filmmaker and artist known for her framed dream-like cinematic stills.
She was born and raised in Oregon, by hard working Mexican immigrant parents. She initially trained and practiced as a hairstylist before becoming fascinated with the world of photography and filmmaking. When not in the darkroom or filming, you’ll find her interpreting for the Lawyer’s Committee for Civil Rights and Labor Commissioner of San Francisco.
2016 Art of Filmmaking 1, NW Film Center, Portland, OR
2012-2013 Todd Hido Studio, Professional Activities, Oakland, CA
2004 Associate of Arts, City College of San Francisco Photography Department, San Francisco, CA
2014 Sleep, Cafe 817, Oakland, CA
2013 Everyday, Farley’s, Oakland, CA
2012 Sleep When I’m Dead, Scream, Oakland, CA
2012 Walk Softly, Marion and Rose’s Workshop, Oakland,CA
2018 Exquisite Little Things, jury selected, Jan Watten, Gray Loft Gallery, Oakland, OR
2018 In Gratitud, jury selected, Laura Valenti, LightBox Photographic Gallery, Astoria, OR
2018 Odd, jury selected, Russell Joslin, LightBox Photographic Gallery, Astoria, OR
2018 Plastic Camera Show, jury selected, Ann Jastrab, Honorable Mention, Santa Clara Univ Art Dept, Santa Clara, CA
2018 Exbounding Boundaries, jury selected, Scott B. Davis, LACP, Los Angeles, CA
2018 Light Sensitive, Art Intersection Street Project, Gilbert, AZ
2018 Interior, Seities Magazine, Shelf Life Books, EXPOSURE Photo Festival, Calgary, Canada
2018 Seeing Red, Gray Loft Gallery, Oakland, CA
2018 The Creative Portrait, LACP, Los Angeles, CA
2017 Off The Wall, Art Intersection Street Project, Gilbert, AZ
2017 Light Sensitive, Art Intersection Street Project, Gilbert, AZ
2017 Hospitality House Annual Art Auction, Minnesota Street Project, San Francisco, CA
2017 Rayko’s 10th Annual International Plastic Camera Show, Rayko Photo Center, San Francisco, CA
2016 Untitled, Rayko Photo Center, San Francisco, CA
2015 Art For The House, Arc Gallery, San Francisco, CA
2015 Hospitality House Annual Art Auction, White Walls Gallery, San Francisco, CA
2015 Indivisualism, RPS Gallery, Oakland, CA
2012 Not Kansas: Photographers Explore Their Own Worlds, Rayko Photo Center, San Francisco, CA
2011 We Out Here, Big Umbrella Studios, San Francisco, CA
2008 Eth6 Magazine Artist Exhibition, BlankSpace Gallery, Oakland, CA
2006 Dandelionblack: Flesh 111 Minna Gallery, San Francisco, CA
2016 “Un Ostión.” Screening, Whitsell Theater, Portland Art Museum, Portland, OR
“No More Bad Nudes” PDN Magazine Dec 2018: 54 Print.
“Don’t Take Pictures” Photo Of The Day, Kat Kiernan, Editor-in-Chief, Sept 18, 2018: Online
“Interior.” Seities Magazine, A Traditional Photography Publication & Gallery, Polaroid Competition Winner Interview Winter/Spring Issue 2018: 47,51, 57-62 Print
“Your Daily Photograph.” Emerging/Contemporary Aug 8, 2017: Online
“Your Daily Photograph.” Ann Jastrab, guest curator Jan 17, 2014: Online
“Portrait Issue” PH Magazine Vol 16 2012: 110-123 Print.
“Nettie R. Harris.” TISSUE Vol 1 Nov 2011: 24 Print.
“The Photography Issue” Juxtapoz Art & Culture Magazine, 2008: Print.
Edwin Pouncey “Loving The Alien” Wire Magazine, Dec. 2006: 29 Print.
“Two Weeks Of Rain” Riot Magazine Australia Vol 3 Oct, 2005: 34 Print.
Pacific Grove Museum, Pacific Grove, CA
Hospitality House, San Francisco, CA
SF Camera Works, San Francisco, CA
Rayko Photo Center, San Francisco, CA
2015 Photographer’s Portfolio, City College Of San Francisco, San Francisco, CA
2012 Out Of Sight, Rayko Photo Center San Francisco, CA
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